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Fire Water

In my younger years prior to full prefrontal cortex development, there was this awful liquor we drank called After Shock. It was cinnamon flavored and felt like fire solidified into ice as it burned down the soft tissue of your esophagus. Good times, right? Lucky-to-emerge times is more like it. I haven’t had a shot of After […]

Flip It

See the lovely photo of snuggles and love up above? Totally symbolic of human connection and joy, yes? Well, it is for me at least. And there is more. A few weeks back, I was cleaning out the van post my return from Calgary. I pulled a few things out of the back of a […]

Choose Differently

In this connection with you, I could slice and dice and turn the prism of a moment of shame and self-criticism in my typical few directions before landing in softness. Yet, the heat, sharpness and intensity of summer reside not only outside but also inside the container of the body. These qualities of summer exacerbate […]

A Box of Fireworks

I missed writing to you all for July 4th. You should have received an email from me but you didn’t. That is hard for me. It is also reflective of where I am. And where I am is only hard for me if I fight it and make it wrong to be here. Instead, I’m […]

When the Grip Let’s Go

On Monday, I lost infinity. I sat on a hill in Calgary. Immense sky, blue with the feeling of tightly woven cotton decorated by a river of clouds. Grass that swam below me. A shower of seed pods that looked like snow feathers dancing through the air and softening downward. I sat in awe of […]

Student meets Teacher

30 move. 10 med. 20 journal. A variation of this is pretty much what an early morning text to my mother and sister has looked like for years. Whatever our “daily practice” is, we each capture it in this ritual of sharing. And the first part – 30 move – is where I tend to […]

Open. Receive.

Suffering is innate because we experience the gift of relativity. The measure of felt loss is directly related to the measure of felt love. Without one, the other cannot exist. Without the joy, we cannot know the emptiness that follows. Our stickiness in suffering arises from another place – our intense belief that once a […]

Relativity

I sent this email moments ago to the president of my daughters’ pre-school PTA: I feel so bad… I sent the cups in but clearly too late this morning as they came with my daughter for her 9:15am arrival. I apologize for my oversight of the (8:30am) time stated on the signup form. It hit […]

In Grief as In Love

I missed a blog post on Thursday, April 12. I’ve connected with you all consistently and without fail every other Thursday morning at 6:00am since January 2017. And I missed Thursday, April 12. That was almost a 30 post run in a lovely and work affirming cadence. And then, as with my meditation timer a […]

(Less than) Great Expectations

“The secret to happiness is low expectations.” This is a favorite quote of a family friend from my childhood. There is so much truth here. And so much room to argue. “But how can we have greatness if we have low expectations?” To which my softer voice replies, “Because greatness isn’t complex. It is simple […]